Dear God, here I am. Asking to be used as a vessel for Your message. As I write these words, please take over my mind, my heart, and my soul that they convey Your word like no one has ever before. May this be a reminder for someone that You are trying to come into their life. God show Yourself not only to them, but continue to show Yourself to me. Thank You in advance for the plans that You have for my life. May You look down and be pleased with my life. For your glory, Amen.
Summer of 2019, I became worn down with the trials of life. I was tired of doing things on my own. I was exhausted from trying to be something that I was not. I was lost and in need of a life-saving change. I prayed a very different prayer to God. One that was as vulnerable as I had ever been with Him, even though he already knew my struggles. In hindsight it is a joke to even think that I was truly hiding something from God, but that was my thoughts at the time.
As the summer continued, a switch occurred. It was evident that not only had He heard my prayer, but He came to the door of my heart and knocked. He came to me at my lowest moments of faith, and refused to let me be alone. So, when you ask why I am on fire for God? It is because He not only accepted me; with my wavering faith, parts of unbelief, and doubt in both Him and myself. I realized that He saw not who I was in that moment, but the person that I am now writing these words. God knew that eventually I would be in a position of being grateful for how far I’ve come, but also focused on where He wanted to me to go next. I was so thankful that I let Him in. I was also thankful of one thing that eased my doubt.
His Grace Accepted Me.
Right now, I know there are a few people who may not want to admit it, but they need Him in their life. I know that you hear Him knocking and you are afraid. You feel that you may not be worthy of His love. You fear that you will let him down, like you have let so many people down in your life before. You are reading these words, and filling in your own problems and reason why He cannot love someone like you. There is no way that I deserve His Grace, His Mercy, and any of the things He offers. Look at those I have hurt and all the bad that I have done.
For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. (John 3:16) How many people do you know love you enough to sacrifice their children? I will wait, because I can only think of one. This verse is why you should not talk yourself out of the love God is trying to give you. He wants to sit with you at the table at your lowest moments. He does not expect you to change overnight. He knows our short comings. (Romans 3:23) He knows exactly who you are, but He knows that first you have to let Him in.
Are you going to let him in? He is knocking on the door of your heart. Waiting on you to open the door and receive the favor that he has on your life. God is not accidentally choosing your door. Him choosing you is intentional; God sees something in you that you have yet to see in yourself. Now you’re asking, “How? Why?” It is simply, because He knows what is in your heart. See you are afraid that God will judge you like people judge you. You are afraid that God will shame like people do every chance that they get, BUT that is not the God we serve. (1 Samuel 16:7)
This moment gives me the opportunity to do something that is the sole purpose of why I started this blog. In Romans 10:9-10, the Bible says 9 If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. 10 For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you profess your faith and are saved. I want to give you an opportunity rather it is your first or 100th time.
Read this aloud:
I now believe that Jesus Christ is Your only begotten Son, that He came down to our earth in the flesh and died on the cross to take away all of my sins and the sins of this world. I believe that Jesus Christ then rose from the dead on the third day to give all of us eternal life.
I now confess to You all of the wrong and sinful things that I have ever done in my life. I ask that You please forgive me and wash away all of my sins by the blood that You have personally shed for me on the cross. I am now ready to accept You as my personal Lord and Savior. I now ask that You come into my life and live with me for all of eternity.
Father, Jesus – I now believe that I am truly saved and born again.
Thank You Father.
Thank You Jesus.”